I have become proud of myself with sustaining from alcohol for 4 months. What I am not proud of is what led me into cross addiction. I witnessed myself leading into prescription pills. I didn’t think they were bad for you because I had a prescription for my medication. I truly believed that prescription pills were harmless and didn’t consider them a drug. I later learned that pills can be highly addictive. I am truly 100% sure I had no idea that prescription pills can be that dangerous and addictive, I seriously thought everything was fine until I kept getting more and more different pills because they seemed so easy to get, but that wasn’t the case at all. As I became more aware of how these pills affected my body, I began taking more and more pills. At this time I was taking Oxycodone, Vicadin, Xanax, Prosom, Prozac, and Adderall, basically anything I could get my hands on. As I discovered how all these pills affected me I eventually began to love the effects. The feeling that I got from taking Oxycodon was something that I haven’t felt in a month. It basically made me feel drunk without drinking. The Opiates were like alcohol to me because when I took the pills I was always in a good mood, I felt comfortable with myself, and I wouldnt be shy at all. Those are the same effects I got when I would be drinking and I thought it was fine because I was prescribed to it. As I began to notice the changes in myself from taking these drugs, I began popping more and more pills until I felt nothing, and that nothing felt really good to me. I was taking up to 10 1,000mg Oxycodones a day. I was taking them every day to get through work and just life. Since I stopped drinking the pills were another escape from reality and I didn’t have to deal with my problems or anyone because I would be in a good mood all the time and nothing ever made me mad until my mom found the Oxycodone in my purse. She had no idea I was taking these pills because they were actually hers. Once I ran out I just asked my doctor and he prescribed them to me. She then hid the pills from me and gave me one pill a day, I eventually found them. I took all of them and just replaced the container with Excedrin because they looked very similar to each other. I literally do not believe what I had to go through to get these pills. I look back now and it was just ridiculous what I had become. I never thought in my life I would go down this road, but I did and I have become stronger from that experience. I now know that its very easy to get addicted to prescription pills. You don’t realize how you can easily go from one pill a day to 8 pills a day, in just 24 hours. I never saw myself being addicted to prescription pills, but now I came to realize that I possibly have an addictive personality and can’t be experimenting with any other drugs because I know if I do Ill probably end up dead and I don’t want that. I feel like I have a lot to offer now and I am definitely proud of myself for what I have accomplished with everything I had to go through. I am now stronger today from the decisions I have made in the past. I thank God every day for another day of sobriety that He has given me.
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